“We are to make wise, careful choices as we journey through life. Our decisions about the use of our time are to be made thoughtfully, intentionally.” --May 25, 2012 Meditation on Ephesians 5:1-20
Too much of my life I have lived unintentionally. I have allowed so much to happen around me and to me that I feel I have failed in the past to make wise use of my time.
Sure, I work hard, and I spend many hours doing my work well; however, I have wasted so much time. Now on the downhill side of fifty, I see the waste. Am I wise enough to change it?
Daily gratitude and appreciation of what I have and where I am on this journey will help.
Conscious choices of how I spend my leisure and my work hours will help.
I cannot look at the past mistakes except to learn something from them. They were mistakes; I know that now. The important point is to examine what I am doing today, this moment. Am I using this hour of my life well, thoughtfully and intentionally?
I am gravely guilty of spending hours in front of the television, lost in ridiculous, mind-numbing waste. At this moment I am listening to and watching the Goat Rodeo Sessions, a wonderful broadcast of creative music-making by four expert musicians. I am writing and thinking at the same time. It may not be my best choice to multi-task though.
I am not giving my full attention to either of my current endeavors.
This morning when I read this meditation, I thought that I would spend some time writing today, since that is something that I tried to start doing a few years ago and gave up on quickly. The day has progressed and I have not written. I have filled my day with busy-ness. What was good about it? Work, groceries, caring for animals, volunteering for animals, helping someone else have a good weekend, seeing my son as he progresses in his recovery, visiting with my parents, planning a birthday celebration for my friends—yeah, all good stuff. But then I found myself sitting in front of the TV watching junk.
I remembered my early morning thought about writing, thank God, in the nick of time before I fell asleep. Grabbed the laptop, change the channel to something I really wanted to see. Now what? I should focus on one or the other, right? No, not yet. I am going to have to work on focus, but not tonight. I am writing. I am enjoying the music without paying complete attention to it. OK, I am at least thinking about the best way to live my life. I can still learn and improve. Baby steps, my friend.